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Monday, January 16, 2006

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 05:58:17 GMT

Wow, it's been a while since I last posted anything. Anyways, winter break was nice and pretty relaxing with some home cooking. Only bad thing is that the internet went when a week or so of winter break was left. Apparently the phone lines are really messed up.

It's been a week or so from winter break. In that week, I've finished the last 6 episodes of Mai-Hime and the last 31 episodes of FMA (Full Metal Alchemist). Mai-Hime's ending was kinda of a happy good ending, because everybody gets revived at the end, while FMA is a bit sadder with the two brothers being separated by time and space. My former roommate is still bugging me about going out and drinking, but I don't comfortable with it. Sigh.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:09:26 GMT

Less than 24 hours till the first final. Already calculated chances for an A based off of previous midterms and it doesn't look good. TDHT looks like it needs a min of 95% or higher for an A, Chem is around 85%, although it could be lower by 1 or 2% tops, Math is looking around 90% or so, and MMW is 90% or higher. Ugh, and that's with a curve for those that have a curve. Oh, well, good luck to everybody on finals!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 22:55:13 GMT

Okay, it's been a while since the midterms, and I finally got back the scores for 2 of them. The Chem midterm I did better tha n I thought I did, even though it was still pretty hard (thanks mostly to partial credit). The MMW midterm was a disaster, did worst than I thought I would, but then again, the average was pretty bad anyways, so it should work out. Only math is left. TDHT paper turned in today, after spending like 6 hours of it. Ugh. Okay, enough rambling for now.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 00:40:47 GMT

Ugh, what a day. Some event's been going on since around 10 or 11 this morning, playing music pretty much all day. It's given me a headache. Done with 2nd round of midterm. No clue how I did on the math midterm. Ugh, hopefully, it'll be better tomorrow. Still have to do that paper for theatre though. Ugh.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 06:10:05 GMT

Yay, two midterms down and one to go. MMW went okay, probably messed up two of the essay questions. Actually they were more short answer than essay, but that's beside the point. Chem was a diasater. No clue how I did. Hoping I did well, but you never know. Last midterm is math, which should be cake, especially after chem. People are starting to wonder why I'm not heading back to NorCal for Thanksgiving. The thing is I end up sleeping most of the trip to and from Palo Alto and San Diego and vice versa. Plus, it would a strain on my parents. Why not hitch a ride? It's because I don't think I know anyone well enough to ask for something like that. It's not something small. Food shouldn't be a problem. Just got to get some stuff before the break. I guess I'm just too used to being alone.Guess I should spend more time brushing up on my chemistry though. Besides, I'll be back in NorCal anyways after finals week in December, so it's not really worth a 16 hour drive back and forth for 4 days. Plus, what would I do during those four days? It's not like there is anything that I can do there that I can't do in SoCal, besides meeting up with some of my friends.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 05:47:03 GMT

Joy, midterms number two next week. Currently standing at half a's and half b's, which is not that great considering it's me. Still have yet to do the chem homework and a rough draft of a paper for theatre, which I'll finish up this 3 day weekend. Finished reading trilogy of Dune, Bultarian Jihad, Machine Crusade, and Battle of Corrin. Watching Bus Stop Saturday, when and if I find the place.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 02:03:40 GMT

Oh, well, 2 to 3 chapters of chem homework to do and 2 nights worth of math. Going to watch that play, Blood Wedding tommorrow for 2 classes, Freshman Honors Seminar and TDHT 11. Hopefully, it's not too boring (ie, I don't fall asleep). It's a funny thing though. In almost all my classes I nearly fall asleep, but I manage to catch myself before I do. I think I might have overdone it in one class and missed about 1 minute of a lecture. Short of being dosed on coffee or skittles, don't know how else to stay awake. At least I have it better than some of the people who actually fall asleep in lecture.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 17:28:17 GMT

Well, midterm #1 is finally over and I finally got all my scores back. Chem was crummy, should have done better, MMW was a bit lower than I expected, and I should smack myself for making those 2 really stupid mistakes that costed me 11 points. Only one left is the theatre paper, no clue how good (errr, bad) it's going to be. Oh, well, at least it's only the first midterm and I can actually work with the material. Really should make some more friends here though.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 03:30:54 GMT

Today was not a good day. My brother somehow got stuck doing a stat project alone with me supplying backup support. It's crazy. He didn't bother exchange contact information with his partners, because they were busy deciding who was going to do what. *Snorts in disgust*. Me providing backup support basically meant I did about half the project for him, like editing graphs, making graphs, etc. It didn't help that I had took the graph link to college, just in case I needed to transfer programs to my calculator. He's too stubborn and isn't even going to bother look at the stat project I did when I was at Gunn, which got pretty good grades. Asking me to write a USA Today article for a stat project is not a good idea, because I never really wrote any for my stat projects. Instead, I usually "assigned" one of my partners the job. I'm still stuck on how to do a decent paper for TDHT. Ugh. Oh, well, at least my midterms are at the end of the week, giving me time to think stuff though. The weather down here is kinda of weird. It's pretty cold at least once a week, and I guess San Diego's finally entered the more wintery phase of the year. Why am I updating my xanga and not studying? Stupid, stupid me. Ahh, well, I'm done ranting.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 06:11:33 GMT

My brother found and sent me this poem by an unknown author. If anybody knows the name of original author, please let me know.

I choose to love you in silence..
For in silence I receive no rejection.
I choose to love you in loneliness..
For in loneliness no one
Owns you but I.
I choose to adore you from a distance...
For distance will shield us from pain.
I choose to kiss you in the wind..
For the wind is gentler than my lips.
I choose to hold you in my dreams..
For in my dreams you have no end.

It kind of describes my personality in respect to relationships. I rather admire from afar than get too close, because it's better than having a broken heart. However, the problem with this is that it ignores the fact that there's the possibility of acceptance. I don't understand love and I don't think I ever will. It's kind of like a song I tried to upload to xanga to play a while back, but it doesn't seem to work, most likely because it requires a host to load it, and geocities doesn't work so well. Ugh, oh, well. I should have gotten more homework and stuff done today, even though I already did a night's worth of math, and finished the rest of the MMW reading for morning. Oh, well, better luck tomorrow then.